i just can't win, for losing.

gradgradgradgradgradgradgradgradgradgradgradgradgradgrad.

so i don't know if you realized, but

I AM GRADUATING THIS YEAR.

so i may or may not be very excited more than you have ever been EVER.

its been a great year so far, i really am enjoying it.

im madly in love with one mr jake sellars.

i have some of the best friends in the world.

i've been getting awesome grades.

i've been having fun.

i feel great about myself.

all in all, it's been a good year.

ALSO.

i'm watching criminal minds and holy frickin i love it so much.

i get scared so easy. but i love it.

i feel like it's a smart show. it's very cool how all the things relate to them, and how they're able to connect things like that. like csi, but cooler.

ALSO

HEY HO CANADA GOOOOOOOO!!!!!

friggin gold, suck it USA.

it may have been close, but you know what wasn't?

the amount of gold medals we beat you by.

ooohh sucks.

also, how's that free healthcare workin out for you guys down there?

oh wait.

thats canada that has that.

suuuuuuucccccccckkkkkkkksssssssssss

kay bye.

i'll be your princess, you'll be my toad.

And the finish line

Is just around the bend

I'll pause this game

So our love will never end

Let's go again.

But never look back cause I'm down, but not dead.

I'll catch up to you.

your favourite fruit is chocolate covered cherries.

well thanks for that hackage.

its okay, i deleted it, so suck it jake.

hmm this week went by without anything to really talk about.

except HAPPY BIRTHDAY ARINNNNNN! xoxoxo can't believe you're 18 :) your legal in alberta. and manitoba. and quebec. i would know, i checked. :)

and thats about it.

grad pitchas saturday. annnnnnd.... yeah.

also, i brought my mark up in english from 85 to 92, which is possibly very nerdy, but possibly very...wait for it...awesome. and we watched 1984, the George Orwell classic today, and i would recommend never watching it ever. it was horrible and just in general terrible.

and because i am a lady, this week i am having some extreme emotional difficulties, which is resulting in me being very sad a lot, to me being very mad a lot, to me being very tired all of the time. its like a little taste of bipolar taylor. hurrah.

and i've given up facebook for lent! so 40 whole days without it. i am very proud to say these past two days have gone by without a hitch. :)

and luckily, i will be able to be on facebook during my trip to new york, so you can all follow my status's and be extremely jealous of everything i say and do.

sick beak.

--love.

i hope you never forget the tapping at your window*

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!

ahhh huzzah, it is the day of love!

and coincidently, i had a lovely love-filled weekend with the people who are like family. i love you all so much and had an amazing time. i miss you guys that live far away, and am determined to come visit you soon!!

so xoxo to you guys, thanks for making this weekend great.

AS WELL.

i get valentine's date tonight. i don't know what i'm doing. but my outfit and hair is planned. which is a plus.

and i get to decorate and surprise him with decorations, but shh don't tell. :)

i love decorating!!

kay bye.

i'll drive a straight line; till i cross the state line

lets get outta this city.

so i'm leaving for a nice lovely weekend getaway tomorrow with some of the people i love most in this world.

yet i don't really know if i'm excited for it.

odd, i know.

friggin i miss you all so much, so obvs i'm excited for that.

but i don't know.

i feel like somethings gonna be missing and it won't live up to last year.

but alack and alas, only time will tell.

turning my phone off for the weekend?

yes please.

goodbye, sweet small town.

hello sweet....smaller town.

this time,baby, i'll be bulletproof.

wtf. so many things to rant right now.

#1- what is your problem? seriously. what did i do to you? i don't have any idea why you felt a need not to tell me or invite me or anything. and there were people there you don't even talk to. that made me feel awesome. so what, were you trying to hide it? is that why theres pictures? yeah, good job of that. that's fine. i knew we weren't that close anymore. and now i know we never will be. so good luck. i'm done.

#2- yeah, i have trust issues. of course i wonder if you've liked other people. you're going to need to learn that when i get that way, us getting in a fight isn't the greatest. so if you could be a little more understanding after everything thats happened, that'd be sweet. so thanks for that. you know i love you, you know i want to trust you, but you know i just can't sometimes. i'm gonna have a hard time with things, and i'm gonna need you there to make it better. thats part of love. i need you to know i'm trying to trust you. i'm trying not to care. but part of me being able to trust you is you being able to open up to me. 'i'm fine' isn't an answer, sometimes. i'd like to know HOW YOU'RE DOING. so thanks.

#3- okay, jokes can be funny. but not when they're rude. i'm friggin sensitive as hell. i understand you probably don't know that cause we haven't really been good friends since a while ago, but still. can't you see it in my face? if we're talking, be serious sometimes. please just stop joking around. one of these days i'm going to cry, and you won't know what to do. so take a minute, think about what you're doing, and don't say something funny. just once.

#4- it's really nice to know that some people will always be there for me. so thanks for those people who have been and always will be.

and now that i am finished ranting, i feel much better.

--love.

you make me crazier, crazier.

oh, what a long hug and a few tears can do for a girl. To remind her how special this is, how great you are, how much she loves you. You're smile, you're laugh, you're eyes. You're great.

also, went to the travel place today! so, roundtrip flight to england, then home flying out of germany is only $1232. which is ridiculously cheap in my opinion. and theres this hostel pass thing that you can buy for like, $35, where you get deals on hostels around the world, and it lasts for two years. it really is great. so, europe, here i come. i think i have some brushing up to do though. because i thought that '€' which it is not. at all. oh dear. but i'm putting my time and effort into researching all the hostels which we'd be going to. gahhhhhhhh.

--love.

eye candy.

Okay so not really eye candy.

But I really wanted candy today.

So I went into the gas station and bought some.

Then thought to myself

'don't worry. you'll only eat some of it and then save the rest for later.'

Apparently I have no self control whatsoever when it comes to candy :(

But I mean seriously.
When you find one of those little penguins, and you think its going to be nasty black licorice tasting, and it ends up being super sweet and delicious, how could you say no?

I love candy.

And healthy eating restarts now.

-love.

shut up, leave it to the teacher.

Alright, new classes today! English Lit is going to rock, Maskell is going to be sweet, I can tell. She has a coffeemaker and teapot in her classroom...for everyone. Like all her students. Caffeine, I love thee. She's got a sweet poetry voice too, all good at reading and stuff.

English 12 might be a TAD more difficult. I think I really like Santos, but I'm not such a fan of the structure of essays. And provincials always seem to bring me down a lot. But it's English, not too hard.

FRICK.

In lit, one of the girls is so annoying. Her mom's a teacher, so I guess that gives her the right to 'correct' the teacher and think she's teaching the class? Sweet. Day one and everything she said I was ready to get up and punch her square in the face. But I'm nice and didn't let her know how annoying she was being. Seeing as she didn't sit close enough to hear me whisper. But alack and alas. She feels a need to comment on every. single. thing. that is said. She tried correcting Maskell, and when she got totally shut down, you could tell she still thought she was right! WTF GET A HINT. Drives me up the wall, that's all I have to say about the subject. Oh wait, no it's not. She wore legging/pant things (they were too tight for pants, and didn't have pockets. but too loose for leggings. I'm still stumped) that had music notes on them. Cool in theory. Not so much when put to practical use.

Okay NOW I'm done.

With that subject, at least.

I have the night off dance. And no homework to do. I'm thinking about starting some German homework, seeing as it's really necessary I finish it sometime soon. But I probably will only get a little bit finished. It sucks having very little motivation.

But do you understand what starting this quarter means?

THIS IS THE QUARTER I GO TO NEW YORK IN!!!

WOOOOOP.

And I may or may not be gone the week before my finals.

Too bad.

I GOT 87% IN MATH 12!!

Maybe not the GREATEST mark. But it's still an A.

Which was my goal. LOVELOVELOVE.

kay bye.

-love.