christmastime

wellll i haven't been on here for a while. it's just because i've been so so busy. but it's been nice.
christmas was yesterday, which was just lovely, thank you lord baby jesus. :)
and it was nice to get to spend time with my brother, even if it was for only the short time of six days. it kind of sucks, because he bought me mario kart for wii, and it was soo fun! spencer, me, jake, mary and martin all got into it, and we had such a blast! its too bad he had to leave so soon into the holidays, because i feel like we wouldn't have done a single thing except for play that game.
i love my family. we have so much fun together. we played this game called Quelf, which is basically the ultimate drinking game. its a board game, and you land on colors, and you pick up a card corresponding to that color, then do whats on the card. its. so fun! we were killing ourselves laughing, and just having a good old fashioned holiday family time!
on christmas eve, jake's family was having their christmas dinner, so i got two this year. it was lovely :).

i think that christmas is my favourite holiday. there is so much family, and so much love going around. people do get negative, which is annoying and really lame, and i think a lot of people just need to perk up and remember what the season is all about.
i don't get another day off until at least new years, so i enjoyed yesterday while i could.
and, i think that is all i had to say about that subject.

lav yew.

fish taco friday

I love fish tacos. A lot. I actually love any form of taco's. Which includes, but is not limited to, fish, shredded chicken, ground beef, hard shell, soft shell, with cheese, without, or in salad form.

I made myself tuna fish tacos today. they were delicious. and i will now post a picture of a taco for your pure pleasure and enjoyment.

because these things will change.

change.

 i always knew that i never liked it, i'm actually quite bad with dealing with change. awful, really. 

which is why i don't understand why it feels like i've changed, yet nobody else has, and i'm not okay with it. 

i mean, you'd think that i'd like it, knowing that i have everything i had before i left. but nope. i'm actually quite annoyed with it. i just don't understand why nothing else has changed. why nobody else has changed. i mean, we graduated, too, so didn't you grow up a bit after that? i guess not...

i know, i shouldn't be so hard on people. i've experience a lot the past few months, and i can't expect everyone to understand how that feels. 

but i'm sick of people.

really, its true, thats how it is.

i'm not okay with everything going back to the exact same way that it was before i left. seriously. 

grow up a bit.

mature a bit.

talk to me a bit. 

share your feelings a bit.

just...a little bit of change???

that would be nice.

i know, this was a whole rant that was useless, because i can't expect people to change, when nothing in their life has. but still. 

i just want to run away to somewhere and travel for long long looonnnggg amounts of time. that would be nice.

thank you and goodnight.

CHRISTMAS!

so, on thursday, i had to take my mommy to work at 8:15 in the morning.
after that, i did about 85% of my christmas shopping. and i only spent $87.
im really proud of myself.

and i think thats all i have to say.
im so excited for christmas.
i love it.

YAY

how its been

Well, I have been home for exactly one week.
It feels as if I never left, almost. which is weird, and I don't like. I miss it. I miss travelling, I miss Jake, I almost miss living out of a backpack. I want to go back. Or to some place completely new. It's just weird and frustrating coming back to a place that hasn't changed at all since I left, except for the snow, and the hospital is built up more. It's beautiful in Vernon, it snowed a lot last night actually, and my mom and I woke up to a snowman in our front yard, courtesy of my daddy. It was a nice way to wake up, and if we were still in Europe, we wouldn't have gotten that view.
There definitely is something to be said for being home, thats for sure. Sleeping in my own bed, being able to make my own food, eating with my family. It's all lovely. And just that sense of relief, of being home, being in a place where you're comfortable.
I haven't exactly had normal sleeping patterns since I got back. My first morning I woke up at 4:00 am, and couldn't get back to sleep. So I woke up and did the dishes, and got ready for a big day...of not really anything. The next morning was a bit better, 5:30. And progressively I have been learning to regulate my sleeping pattern.
I've had a lot of really fun days with my family. I went and saw Kal put on Fiddler on the Roof, which was very good. I saw the Powerhouse performance of Grease, which was also really cool! I got to go out for coffee with Christine, and am slowly making plans with other friends.
I feel bad, I've been a total homebody as of late, but looking back, I've only been home a week. I started working again, and applied at a couple places hoping to get another job. I'm so far in debt it's ridiculous. Well, not so far in debt. But farther than I'd like to be.
Anyways, here's a picture of my daddy's snowman.
MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

home.

so...i'm home.
its weird. our flights were all fine, kind of.
the flight from amsterdam to dublin was fine, as was dublin to chicago. aer lingus is a really good airline. on the dublin to chicago there were the tv's in the back of the seats, with games, tv shows, movies, radio, all that. and we got a full meal as well as a snack, and they kept coming through with coffee, tea, and water for you. so that was nice! it went by super fast, and because we were flying into the sun, like, backwards in time kinda thing. so it was easier to stay awake, as well.
and then...we switched airlines.
from chicago to vancouver we were travelling with United Airlines, and we were supposed to leave at 8:18 pm. we ended up boarding the plane around 8:40. cool. the flight was super crowded, and there was someone sitting in the aisle seat, and i felt sick, and every time i got up to use the washroom she had to get out too.  i was so hungry to the point of nauseousness, so that was balls. luckily jake had bought teddy graham's at the airport, so we could snack on those. every now and then i could fall asleep, but not enough to really make an impact on how i was feeling.
we got out of the security area at midnight, and luckily spencer and victoria had checked the flights and knew we were going to get in late, so they were there waiting for us. and it was nice, because they had rented a zipcar, so we didnt have to use public transit to get back to their house.
we got back about 1, and in bed by 1:15. jake was able to sleep right until seven, when i woke him up, but i had been kind of tossing and turning, looking at the clock at 4:15, 5:30 and 6:30.
anyways, we were able to get tim horton's for breakfast (!) and it was delicious! we were able to find our way  to the airport, and everything went extremely smoothly from there on in. we got to kelowna earlier than originally scheduled, which is pretty amazing for a vancouver flight in december. and our parents were there waiting, my mommy had flowers,, and her and anna cried.
it was just lovely. :)
so we're home now, and it just feels so bizarre. i love my home, my shower, my parents. its a very great feeling, dont get me wrong. but it's just so different. so....small town.
i think i like it?
anyways, im super tired and half jet lagged.
so...
off for now!!

--t