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gahh so i am having an emo day.

one of those things where all the little things build up and make you want to punch someone and something in the face.

hard.

bahh.

my phone is such a pissoff and i can't delete anything and so all of my texts look like drunk texts and i don't feel good about myself and there are those girls, you know the girls, that you're friends with that get everything? everyone likes them, everyone thinks they're amazing and everything and its just like. FUCKING PAY ATTENTION TO ME FOR A SECOND PLEASE. holyy such an annoying thing.

everybody's pestering me to do stuff and its like...dude.

its the first week of summer vacation. let me just escape from you for a while. i need my me time. does nobody else need that? do people feel the need to constantly be surrounded by people all the time? cause i dont! at all. i like being alone sometimes. i just need to back out and be like..hode up. back up off me. but no, people don't understand that sometimes i just want to lie outside at HOME. not at the beach where there is bird shit and children screaming and dirty water. i want to lie outside on my deck, where there is little to no bird shit, swim in my clean pool, and have almost silence.

yes, that sounds just lovely.

silence.

and when you have those days where everythings breaking, you just lose it? the cord to my laptop was under it. and i couldn't move it for some reason. so i screamed at it....

loudly...

oh dear.

at least ranting here is making me feel a LOT better about things. :)

mica had her concert last night. ryan, phoebie, stacey, arin and taylor and i all went. we were all bawling when she finished. it was such a beautiful song.

i love you mica and will miss you terribly. don't forget me when you're famous.

brooke's birthday is on saturdayyy and so friday night its her birfday partyy! im SO EXCITED. i think that after this week i'll be able to be in summer mode and go to the beach and stuff. which is quite nice.

im planning out europe as we speak, also.

like, i have a map that i am drawing stars on for where we want to go. red stars for both of us, yellow for just me, blue for just him.

really though, im down for anywhere.

i just want to get out of dodge.

--t