lately.

oh hellooo again!

how art though??

well, i am pretty good. i think.

i had a very long dance rehearsal today, and realized that some of my costumes look stupid as balls. i also realized that pantyhose are such a ripoff because i paid 8 bucks for a pair that was supposed to fit me according to the sizing chart, and didn't at all, and ripped as soon as i put them on. kay cool.

also, it's my birthday soon :) on tuesday.

i'll be 18. it's been such a great 18 years that i've had. im really blessed :)

also, i'm starting to worry. of course. what else is new. i'm just worried because i feel like i've always been very clingy with jake. like i love talking to him all the time and being with him all the time and even if i'm sick and super tired i wanna be with him still.

and then last night, i was sick and tired and sleepy, i just went to bed. without a fight for him staying over or anything.

and i know thats stupid, cause i mean, it's almost been two years since we started dating, and i really should be at that not clingy point anymore, and i hope thats what it is, but what if its something else? like i know its not...but...gahhh.

and it's super busy time right now, like every june. it's everyone's grads, its my birthday, it's dance show and many rehearsals, and it's my grad. but i know that in a month it'll all be over and good and i wont be stressed anymore. but especially because i am pmsing like a psychowoman, its really really weighing on me.

but i know it'll get better as soon as school is done (forever!) and the sun starts shining :)

sooo, i think thats all, but i really don't know.

my neighbors are smoking pot right now.

i can smell it cause my windows open...

but im too lazy to close it.

kay now im done.

--t